this is a quick rant. don't read if you aren't bored.
at first, there's the meeting. the positive, the negative, the outward appearance. what you try to portray will give off a certain aura. people often say "not to judge a book by its cover", let's be real, we all do. if it's gone off on a wrong note, doesn't mean that things can't work out though. with time, you learn more about the other person. as you understand more and more about that said person, you learn to appreciate and to accept them for who they are. for me, it takes A LOT of time for the whole process to go through. my hubs always told me i was too gullible and naive, he told me i needed to
change and analyze things more carefully, because not every single
person i encounter will want good things for me. so i learned, and now i just can't put my trust into someone who isn't my husband, part of my family or friends easily. honestly, if it takes that much time for the cycle to be complete, when you're at the finish line and celebrating about my total trust, why would you wanna go back to the starting point? people always end up doing things to make me doubt everything. one single fuck up can jeopardize the years i put into trusting someone. it's tiring, i don't wanna care anymore. now that its off my chest, i hope i won't ever think about it again.
ok, thats all! bye!